As I was complaining about not having eaten meat in two months, a miracle happened. Someone gifted us with a whole chicken! I cried... It was organic and it made a wonderful soup and a wonderful roast and delicious sandwitches! It fed the whole family including the dog and the cat!
I'm so greatful...
Another miracle is that a friend found a small amount of money on the street and thought of us...
Like this poppy which grows inside the wall. The spring is here.
Soon I will have my sewing maschine again. And some fabric. Creativity is on my way...
Everything is going to be fine. Stay centered. Focused. Stay inside yourself. I love you.
I'm very tired of these games. I want to heal all my wounds. It takes me at least five to six hours to get my spirits up after these phonecalls. I want to scream. I want to be independent. And I fall. On my knees again until I know what the fuck has happened. And stand up again.
Stand up. And stay up. That is when miracles happen. When you stay up. When you say I am alone and I'm happy I am alone.