The end of the summer

And then, the automn comes.

The days are shorter.
The air is colder.
Sweet September will be here in three days.
You can feel it in the air. 

Back in June it was the same. It was cold and cloudy. But you had a whole summer to look forward to. Now the summer is coming to a close. And you contemplate your summer. The things you allowed to happen. The beautiful images the island gave you. The hot days. The burning sun.

Every summer I look at the sea and think: I will take this image with me to warm me up in the winter. I try to be in the moment, so that it stays with me for the rest of the year. Until the summer comes and another beach comes in front of my eyes.

Light and love

I can't believe it's almost three months we are in Sifnos... When we came, the island was empty, only a few tourists and the camping was empty. Then July came and it became busy. Then August came and the crowds kept coming...

Some really wonderful people came my way. That's what I like about changing places. You make friends, you talk about different things and experiences... 

Even with all these ups and downs with work, life was so interesting here... All these children I met were so giving and wonderful... It's a miracle to see a child smile and laugh and eat and play! It's a miracle when a child uses imagination to make a new game or tell a new story...

These children opened a new door for me. I already knew I was talented at connecting with them, but they clearly showed me I'm good. Is life going to take me further into dealing with children?

Let's see. All options are open and welcome. Life is a true miracle...

There is somehting childish about this summer...

 So I spent five relaxing days in Kamares, Sifnos. Swimming in the sea, sleeping a little bit longer, talking with friends....

Yesterday morning I found another job. I'm going to babysit a 4 year old. The mother of this child knew me because her 4 year old was playing every day with my 7 year old. So she asked me to baby sit him in the afternoons when she is very busy.

I felt my work as a child sitter was appreciated. It felt great. It felt like it was worth quitting my other job.

Now my mornings are free and my afternoons are full of child energy again. And, this time I can take Freeda with me. It's so wonderful...

And another thing. This 4 year old grows up the way I would like to grow MY child up. He is bare foot all day, in the sea all day, free to enjoy nature and play. He eats if he is hungry, he sleeps if he is tired. He is free to fall and there is a big hug for him by both his parents if he falls.

Have a nice day!

The end of anger.

That's it. I quit. Yesterday. I can take my dog and go for a coffee. I can go to the beach. I can stay in bed all day.

Yes, the whole situation was mirroring my inner feelings. The way I treated myself. The way I was abusing myself. For what? For the money? Stop. Stop abusing yourself honey. There is no point. Forgive yourelf for all you think you have done wrong. Please forgive yourself. There is nothing wrong with your decisions. They are only decisions and you can always change your decisions.

I look around me. The mountains are still the same. The sea is still there.

Why the drama? Why the tears?

No more tears please. I am on a beautiful island and I have money in my pocket. I'll take my time to relax and maybe travel a bit around the island. If I find another job, it will be wonderful. If I don't it will still be wonderful.

Have a nice day.

Thinking of change

It's been a month now and I still haven't commented on my bosses nature.

He acts a lot like my dad. Big ego, very negative, very judgemental... I thought my days with these kinds of bosses were over, but here I am, working with a personality I cannot handle.

Whatever I do, I'm never good enough, I am making a lot of mistakes and I don't care about my job, I don't care about him or his kid... Deep inside I knew what he was like when I first met him in Athens. I realised I was not mistaken when I first came here. Being in such a nice scenery I decided not to care about it. I know who I am and what can I do. And I always do my best. Then he asked me to take care of his kid. And I did it gladly. Me and the kid, we became very good friends. I tried to reach his heart. I tried to listen to him. And we got along really well.


Until he got sick with diarrhea. And I stood beside him. I stayed up all night to take care of him. I told him it would be over soon. I did my best with this lonely, broken child....


And I was to blame for the sickness. I was to blame for lack of clean manners. I am washing both the daddy's clothes and the son's clothes by hand everyday and I'm lazy. I'm just having a good time.

So here is the question. Will I expect to be accepted by someone who never will? No. Thank you very much.


I am flerting with the idea to change jobs. Change from a fancy store to cleaning rooms or something. Will I do it? I don't know yet. I'll see. It's only one month to go. August.


I haven't made the final decision yet.


For now, I will enjoy my last 8 days with the kid. And then I will decide.

PS Blogger is being funny and will not let me upload any pics...