Way out

As I look through my old blog photos, (to pulish them once again on my photogallery) I realise I have taken some beautiful pictures. This way I'm taking a trip to the past and it's a good thing for my self-esteem. I'm a good photographer after all.

It's funny how we forget our talents and indulge into depression. But I guess it's a circle. The circle of life and emotions. Winter is a time to go back inside, while the spring is more outgoing... So I'm waiting for the miracles the Spring will bring. It might give us all a way out...

My new born baby...

Right. After a lot of thinking, twisting, turning, searching... Here it is! My new born idea! I'm going to sell all these wonderful photographs I have been publishing in this blog!


I just made a new-sister blog which will only show these photos!

My god, it's so much work! I never realised I took so many pictures in these ten months I've been writing...

So bear with me, I'm just figuring out priting, sizes, prices...

I never thought of myself as an artist, but it's time to recognise my talent for photography. Even with my little camera I have taken the most amazing and breathtaking pictures... I'm so exhited!

When you feel too comfortable in your drama it's time to let it go

There is something I realised. I am sooo much in love with my drama! Enough with the drama.In the past two weeks I have felt the love of friends. We cooked toghether and we ate toghether and we had some wonderful conversations on life, on love, on spirituality, on... everything!

It made me think I haven't written anything positive in a while. I haven't honoured my talents and my creativity. I haven't honoured the special person that I am. Depression has funny ways of deceiving us. And unemployment lowers our self-esteem.

These days I have been feeling my friend's loving energy. They want to help. They are looking on ways to help me. Isn't that wonderful? We are going through difficult times. Solar storms and financial depression. Some people, who are more powerful, want to make us feel useless. But we are not useless. We are miracles who live on earth. We are teachers and healers. Yes there are a lot of people who belong to the mass consciousness, who eat genetically modified foods and watch too much television. There are people who are easily manipulated by the powerful. I send my loving energy to them and hope they will find their way to the light.

On the other hand, there are wonderful people, who care about each other. Who care about the earth. Who are trying to love themselves unconditionaly. Who search in their deepest darkness to find the light. This is the person I try to be. And I know I'm not alone. I'm sure there are bee-hives all around the world, let's call them human-hives in which the honey of a better future is made.

I hope each and everyone of us finds or creates a human-hive where he or she is accepted and loved exactly as he or she is.

So I'm kissing good bye my beloved drama. I promise to use my creativity in life. I promise to respect and love myself no matter what the situation is.

Searching inside

I have been waiting eagerly for comments on my last post... Noone answered just yet...

I have been waiting and thinking. Is there something in the big picture I don't see? Are there isues to be solved? Why does this difficult period last so long? I used to be able to resolve difficult matters in a short time. I used to find jobs. I used to be lucky.

What has happened? Am I looking for the wrong job? Is this an opposite polarity that tells me, "sooner or later you will forget about this stupid travelling project"?

I'm looking deep inside for the answer. What is it that I'm doing to myself?

I hope to find an answer soon.

Till then, I'll just smile.

A little help from you, my readers...

I have a part time job and I will get paid in 41 days. I am still looking for a more decent job which will give me more decent money.

Walking around the city, working and being out half the day, I'm waiting for the miracles to happen. Athens is not pretty anymore, I talk with my friends and they are not optimistic about the future. When we start talking about all the things that hurt us, I stop. Let's talk about the bright things. Let's talk about something positive. There's always something positive to be said...

I have started thinking about working in a farm. For money. I do like being a volunteer but it does not bring food on the table. So I'm asking you. My readers. Do you know of any farm in Greece that need a couple to stay and work there? I'd like to be somewhere remote. I'd like to cook for people. I'd like to feed the animals, take care of gardens... Whatever...

If you have been reading long enough you know me well enough.

Be my messenger to the world. Please help. I need to feel the hope and the love. You might be the miracle that I need.

Have a good day.

This mashine called life and it's magic buttons

After a lot of searching and positive thinking, something seems to be changing. One small tiny job. And others to hope for.

My lesson for this: When you don't have a job and your money finishes, your self esteem lowers. Your mind makes all sorts of dark thoughts... I tried to keep my mind very very focused on what I have, not on what I don't have.

When this small part time job opened up, things shifted... I found more vacancies in the newspaper. And I made some appointments. Let's see if anything opens up.

I am still uncertain about the future, because this part time job will pay after a month and a half. But fortunately, and with the help of friends - not family - I'm going to get there...

I wish there was a button to change everything. I wish I could push a button and get on a plane to the next travel destination. And I know I do have this button. But I'm not an expert with this machine. I am still learning how to operate it...

Have a good day!

Keeping it cool

I have been without a job for the past 2 weeks. I am looking, calling, searching.

I try not to dispair. I am strong. I'm telling myself I'll make it. I will. Sometimes it's difficult and sometimes it's easy to smile. I have to keep in mind who I am and what I am. I try to remebember that it is me who created this situation and I have the power to change it.

As Neal Donald Walsh says, it is in our greatest darkness we should remember who we are and use the tools we have. I have food on the table. I have a warm home, when it's cold outside. I have knowledge. I am grateful.

I remember I had this photo of a river in the mountain. I'll ask the running water to take away my fears and lead me to my heart's path again.