Κυριακή 24 Οκτωβρίου 2010

A little bit of thinking...

I got very emotional today, reading another blog. My hot reallity is written by someone who is like me. She volunteers in South America and, as all humans do, has her up's and downs. She's been doing what I do longer than me. And she made me cry because she dares to speak her truth. She got me thinking about my truth. She got me thinking about the little girl inside me. Is my little one happy? I'll make two lists today.

What makes me happy.
Watching the moon everynight.
Taking pictures of all the magical images that the earth offers me.
Indulging in all these Italian desserts. The cream explodes in my mouth and I have a feeling of absolute bliss.
Tasting all these wonderful meals made with organic vegetables and homemade tomato sauce.
Watching the horses from my window.
Going to the olive mill and watch how olives become oil.
Meeting wonderful people.

What makes me unhappy.
Having to wake up at 6 in the morning.
Having certain Italian men look at me as a dessert.
Missing my man so badly.
Missing my dog so badly.
Missing the warmth of my own home and the warmth of having friends around for dinner.

At this time I just feel strange. I wanted to write all these amazing things I saw in the olive mill, but I guess I'm all stuck emotionaly. It brings tears to my eyes. It has to wait. I'm sorry.
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  1. το μικρο κοριτσακι μεσα σου θελει να παιξει,να λασπωθει και να τραγουδησει!!!
    μην 'το βαραινεις'.ειναι πολυ νωρις για σενα να κανεις τετοιες σκεψεις,προσαρμοζεσαι ακομα!ανακαλυπτεις!αλλωστε δεν ειναι αναγκη να το κανεις συνεχομενα!δεν εκλεισαν και τα συνορα!μπορεις να γυρισεις και να ξαναφυγεις αν θελεις!αφεσου ελευθερη και θα σε παει μονο του!

    ε.

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  2. It's ok to question things every once in a while. It's absolutely normal to miss the people you used to have in your life before this.
    I'm afraid you wouldn't be much of who you are, if you didn't. All this is a big part of you. Just because your life has led you to different paths, it doesn't mean you don't carry them with you.

    So, keep feeling and keep questioning everything. And remember that we all walk on paths we may choose to alter in the future. If you feel that something's not working or doesn't feel right, it's up to you to change it.

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  3. There is a scale inside each and every one of us.

    Only you know which side the balance goes...

    Whichever your choice, just make sure it makes you smile each morning!!!

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  4. "Having certain Italian men look at me as a dessert.
    Missing my man so badly.
    Missing my dog so badly.
    Missing the warmth of my own home and the warmth of having friends around for dinner"

    Το πρώτο ενέχει το ρίσκο.. της επιλογής, και το προσπερνάς με χαμόγελο :)

    Για τα υπόλοιπα....δεν έφυγες για πάντα!! Ζήσε την εμπειρία, νιώσε τα θετικά της και αν τελικά δεν σε καλύπτει όπως το θες, εδώ σε περιμένει η ζεστασιά όσων περιγράφεις.. :)

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  5. Guys, you are so kind to me... You make me cry. I don't know how to express my gratirude...
    @e Yes, things will take me there eventually... I'll let go!
    @ g thanks a lot. I'll keep questioning and I'll keep deciding what's mine and what's not.
    @mikres anases. I will keep smiling every morning!
    @roadartist, you are right. I have the free will to come back whenever I feel like it.
    Thanks again everyone!

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