Parents

Mom Marika and foal Sylvia

My parents are like the waves in the sea. They come, splash into my heart's shore and go.

They have a wild child. They feel very unfortunate. Because they have a child who dares to dream of travelling around the world. They feel devastated. They feel abandoned. They feel very unfortunate because all these years they bred and supported a girl who does not want a family, does not want kids, does not want security, does not want to follow tradition. I try to feel compassion for their saddness and terror.

Right now they are playing an ugly game. A game of power and control. They are trying hard to make me change my mind. They are using all the ugly tools they have. They threaten me with financial abandonement. What they said was mine when I was doing what they accepted, will not be mine anymore. They want back all their gifts. Their material gifts I mean. Although I cannot understand this behaviour, I try to keep my cool.

No, I do understand this behaviour. They want their obedient child back. They want a child they can control.

They do not want an adult child.

And right now I feel the anger. I am so pissed off with them, my head is bursting!

It's difficult to forgive when you're pissed off. It's difficult to be gracious when you're pissed off.

So I'll stay pissed off. And use the force of my anger creatively.
I will create my departure to a heart's dream.

To travel around the world.

Thank you.